I’ve been troubled on so many levels since November 8th, that I feel a wee bit like Indiana Jones, dropped into the tomb full of snakes. But I like snakes better than I like the things disturbing me, to be honest, because snakes ARE more honest. They kill to defend or to eat, not to be mean. People can’t always say that. I have tattoo’d snakes going up my left arm, and people sometimes shudder to see them. Snakes don’t make me shudder, people DO!
These things that trouble me, things that marginalize and “liminalize” me, sap my energy. These are things from my alleged “own side” that make me tilt my head, scrunch my eyes, step back in dismay. To me, long a student of history and schooled in the ways of “the Red threat” — these are things I could safely categorize as “fifth columnists.” Do the perpetrators of these troublesome bits KNOW they are a danger to their own side? I rather doubt it. They THINK they are helping to whip up the troops.
But they are whipping fears and divisions and hatreds. They are fanning negative flames instead of building warming home-fires. What do I mean? I’m only going to hit a couple examples.
Well, for one thing, almost every day when I get the mail (and email), there is a plea to send money to this or that candidate in some other state. This bothers the hell out of me. To me, the people IN that state are the ones who should have the say in THEIR election. Some years ago, here in Washington State, there was an effort to get through a bill about gun sales. And oh, the OUTRAGE of the Democrats that the NRA and their many “civilian” supporters sent money from OUT of STATE to “interfere with OUR election!” Well, pot meets kettle, don’t you think? IF it is wrong for the Right to do it; why would it be right for the Left to do it? Yes, I am big on the idea of fighting fire with fire — but you have to know when that fire is going wild to burn EVERYthing. So hell no, my money will not go to other states even to support candidates for ‘my’ side; I think that is a political SIN to interfere in the sovereign voting rights of other citizens of my country. . I think that is overstepping the bounds of political decency.
Then there is this little hate-clad thing about the wife of the Presidential Celebrity Apprentice (because ISN’T he an apprentice?). First there were snarky signs: “Melania, are you alright?” That was semi-funny. But also semi-sad; because when I looked at most of the photos, she actually looked tense, possibly frightened. She looked like a woman doing an unwanted performance and she was largely ignored by her husband as she did it. Then there were bloggers saying, “Well, first I felt a little sorry for her, but she married the jerk — so she can lie in that bed.” Wow. How fucking compassionate is THAT?
This woman was an immigrant. Personally, having been hungry and desperate enough to want to run away from where I was in my life? Had I actually run and an apparently rich and powerful man offered me marriage so I could stop worrying about hunger and a roof over my head? I’d likely have taken him up on it, too. And any of you out there sneering down your nose about now, saying “Fucking never!” – tell me how hungry you have been. Tell me how much you struggled and for how long with NO help before you judge me OR her, ok? Does she regret her choice now? I don’t know; judging by his divorce record I’d say chances are she might. I sort of wish that wasn’t true for her sake – because an unhappy marriage is such a hell that starvation doesn’t sound like such a bad way to go.
So, if it was shitty of the Republicans to trash Hillary, and her daughter? If it was wrong to call First Lady Obama an “ape” — by what fucking fair play rules is it right to pick on a woman who still sounds like she struggles a bit with English and is just hoping to raise her son in peace? Also, it is pretty shitty fucking feminism to blame a woman for her husband’s bad behavior; remember how you ALL said that when Trump blasted Hillary Clinton with Bill Clinton’s bad actions?
So if you want to be spoken to civilly by ME? Knock that classless shit OFF. STAY on the message instead of engaging in cruel, useless ad-hominem attacks on wives of ANYone. About now, I’m sure someone wonders why this largely political post is here on my “spiritual blog”? Well, because if a person believes in attempting magic? They need to know something about the energy the practitioner is going to be trying to throw about, ok?
IF the witch/magician/sorcerer/shaman/priest/priestess is polluted with hate, anger of the wrong sort, etc? Then their magical energetic aim is NOT coming from a premier source and it damages the effectiveness of the working. This was clear in Dion Fortune’s letters, as I recall. She told her groups to keep working positive — to focus not on attacks, but protections; not on tearing down, but on building up. And that resonates for me with political action. We can resist all the horror we want, but if ALL we do is react to dreadful things and fear? We are not building something effective in which to survive and live. That counts politically and magically.
So, as this blog will soon go private, and I will send invites and accept emails asking for invites — let it be known, if you do NOT clean up your own act first, you will not be part of this virtual circle. Trust me, it’s not easy. I know. I am a bite and smite special, myself; but I know when I have to bank the fires of anger to keep the warmth and avoid the melt-down. I have to MAKE myself look to what makes it better. IF this post gets you all riled up and righteous about “who the hell does she think she is?” Well, then I am almost certainly talking to you.
Don’t just get scared by the world that needs fighting, get righteously angry at the wrongs being done. But don’t just get angry – get rationally and constructively engaged. To do that from a place of pure flowing energy means you can’t pour emotional/political poisons into the fucking cauldron!