In the Magical Battle of America today, we are asked to turn back the tide of cynicism and apathy in America. I have read the working, and it will percolate all day as I go about mundane tasks. This evening, as dusk falls (if I am lucky) or later at bedtime (if hectic time prevails), I will perform the working.
I am fortunate today. As I have relayed before, I am not at peace with the images on the “banners” selected by Hekate-Demeter as I simply find no resonance with some of them, I find one hopelessly Euro/white-centric, or I cannot visualize something as vague as “the Underground Railroad” as a visible device. This week’s target area is my home Northwest, however, and the leaping salmon of our many dam-threatened streams and rivers. I can work with that visualization.
I suspect I will struggle in the weeks ahead. Walden Pond does not speak to me of New England. The “Underground Railroad” for the South does speak, and loudly — but I can’t make it an image, for me it is scurrying sounds in the dark, hushed voices, smells of sweaty frightened hurrying people. A cowboy for the Southwest is a hopeless bit of white colonization that I prefer to NOT identify as a main American aspect to be pushed as “what to defend.” In my visualization — I see the banners as colors instead. As colors with elemental connotations. I see the NE banner at pentagram point in vivid yellow; the SE banner is verdant green; the SW banner is burnt desert red, the NW banner is water blue, and the tip banner is alternating white and black.
I do value Hekate-Demeter’s desire to find a visual image for each region, but I suspect I am not the only one needing a more general image or a completely different image to actually work with so that the mind doesn’t go off in a rant about Euro-entric Marlboro men. Hey, when I played cowboy and Indians as a kid, I insisted on being the Indian in spite of being given numerous cowgirl outfits.
Or, as I will do with the Southeast? I won’t make a visible image at all — I will hear that demanding search/run for liberty. But even that will be a work in progress. If this exercise is to awaken cynical/apathetic hearts — is it enough to only reach for those already more or less mobilized? What about the white, largely not-considering-Underground-Railroad-past populace of the Southeast? How does magic create empathy and connection there? I feel this being left out of the working IS a problem. We can’t just look at what we LIKE, we have to look at what we are NOT seeing and do NOT like as well. ALL of it is part of the mundane/magical equation.
I am a Westerner by feeling, frankly suspect of things East of the Rockies; and East of the Mississippi – forget-about-it! I have lived in every part of this nation; New England’s beauties moved me. Walden Pond did not. But the American South is a hard sell to me. “If they threaten to secede again,” I’ve often said, “Let them!” So, like the kid with negative behaviors that eats all the parental energy — I find myself getting into snarling knots about how to “reach” that bit of my nation. I want to punish and slap them first – and only reach when they are contrite! So there is my Hekate/guide/avatar with a torch AND a sword? I am spending a lot of energy trying to amend my attitude. And parts of me are mounting a vivid resistance to amending that attitude. So it goes.
Thank goodness, we start the effort with my own Northwest — I have “grappling time” before I tackle the South. And then, perhaps, as HD said about discomfort in working, or fear or threat, it IS “ok” to sit out a working for fear of fucking it up. By the time we get around to the SE banner, I should know if I can do it at all or if I will let that one ride on someone who liked “Gone With the Wind”. (I know, I know — hoity-toity and dismissive. We ALL know this IS me, right?)
How do you see the “banners”? What do you find at the heart of America beneath the center of HD’s pentagram hovering over the continental U.S.? Is there a section that you most align with; is there one that is the hardest reach for of all? ARE you doing the exercises/workings? Or still thinking about it? How shall we, a sort of virtual circle, go about this? Everyone hitting for the brass ring weekly (or as I do about 4 times a week)? Or should we trade off — a couple people working, everyone else concentrating on energy work FOR the workers?
Speak up! I’m actually a bit sick of the sound of my one hand clapping!