…Tell me what are we fighting for?
Yes, the second new moon of the month, the “black moon” rose invisibly this morning — lost in the rosy first rays of the sun. (No, ABC, you twits, it will not rise “tonight” — new moons rise in the dawn, one reason they are invisible in the sun’s glare – also because the bright reflective side is facing the sun, not earth!) As I promised, I rose, and prepared to try to “change reality in accord with my Will.” This new moon is in the sign Libra — the scales. You know, like Lady Justice allegedly holds? Does the toll of black bodies not yet outweigh white fears and misperceptions to balance those scales?
I bathed, watching steam rise in the unheated September air. I dressed in black, red, and white — colors I often choose for magical work, but more than usually today as my sleepy mind paraphrased Joan Baez singing about Biko to be, “…at night I only dream in red; the outside world is black and white, with only one color dead. Oh, because…because…because…”
Are there two Americas? One for whites and one for non-whites? It is my paraphrase “because” that lit the candles of my mind to craft my working with the energies I gathered yesterday — looking up at towering twin trees, both lightening blasted at their tops — like the Tower of Tarot.
America decried apartheid in South Africa. But here at home, de facto segregation and educational/economic apartheid is very real and an unspoken blight upon what our nation meant to be in my youth. We don’t confront the ideas that don’t match our action, do we? The storm we refuse to see coming can fell us all the same? What light can shine into our minds to warn us?
One – if the element Air flows betwixt us all, does it carry/bear witness to all those who respire, aspire, conspire on this solitary blue sphere in the void of space?
Air carry my my thought,
Black lives and white lies matter,
See through dark fear’s fog!
Two – the very Earth beneath our feet, the earth that trembles beneath armies and soaks up the blood of our ignorance and turmoil, is the basis of our life. What could it bring to live out of fertile blood spilled?
Earth run energy,
As a seismic wave of change,
Three – our emotions flow as fast and changeable as the element Water, reflecting things true and illusory. Is it too easy to not feel what isn’t happening to you? Your blood is as red as the blood being shed from darker skins, is it not? How is it that your white face does not flush with grief?
Water seep redly,
Crack the privileged hearts,
Paint empathy there!
Four – is our Will, our ability to work for change and progress as hot as it should be? Is it the Fire in our lives, lighting the dark rotten hollows we never look at? Do we quail before the task, thinking it too vast? I walked the length of a fallen giant yesterday – reciting to myself, “The bigger they are, the harder they fall.” And yes, any small breeze of beginning can catch in the wind to be a bigger fire. Light a light –give it the wind of change to burn away the wrong?
Firepower by gun,
But not for every color?
Turn against that Fire!
Can we, Americans, recognize that there are many trees that make a forest; many peoples to make a nation? And that if one tree falls in a forest, more trees grow from that loss; but in a nation that chooses to repeatedly burn down only certain people, what grows from that might burn down a nation?
That invisible black moon is high in the noon sky, as invisible, alas, as the insidious secret bias and racism and fear of “otherness” that blights and ends black lives in America. The blaze of the sun hides every new moon, sadly like “all lives matter” non-sequitors try to hide that black lives matter because THOSE are the lives being TAKEN.
But that moon is there. Pulling tides and fault lines, invisible and easy to ignore until the moment when it blazes from the sunless sky — white as the lies privileged America prefers to cold brutal truth and grief and death. Embrace that black moon, it is the monster we carry unacknowledged and uncontrolled. Face your fears, destroy the lies, empathize and stop the killing!